Yesterday, was not a good Mum day.  There could be multiple extenuating circumstances that caused the chaos that was my yesterday, but they would end up sounding like excuses.  There was a lot of yelling involved, not all of it mine.  It was the yelling prior to my yelling that set the spark that made me feel the need to yell as well. (If that made sense to anyone, that probably means that you have also experienced one of those days.)  At the time of all the yelling I was trying to have some creative time.  I had even set up my wall of music sound barrier.  The sound barrier is to avoid me getting involved in all the minor disputes that happen between siblings that are irritating to listen to, but don’t need parental intervention.  When the hollering, bellowing, and shrieking breached my sound barrier, my brain went to the unfortunate place of, “Can’t I just get one moment of peace?”.  That is the first step into the ‘shoulds’ and ‘shouldn’ts’:  “They should be able to deal with this; I should be able to have a half an hour to myself; I shouldn’t have to have the same conversations, arguments, frustrations…every day; They shouldn’t be so mean to each other….”  ‘Shoulds’ and ‘shouldn’ts’ just lead to delusions, and in my case, usually anger.  Thus the dreaded decent into yelling at the yellers.  In the midst of the mayhem I was still trying to create.  Without intention, my image came out like I was feeling.